“I want to go home, home to my adult life, with its losses carved forever in my path, with its possibilities, like unformed clouds, calling me forward” (116).
Meredy is finally able to come to the conclusion that running away is not going to make her problems disappear. In the start of her journey, she wanted to forget her past and get away from her regrets as far as possible, but the more she kept traveling, the more she realized something. The faster or farther she ran, the closer and stronger her regrets became in her head. She has finally decided that running away is not the answer and that she needs to come home. Meredy is in over her head and she is exhausted. She just wants some type of normality back in her life instead of the struggle of living day by day. She is finally able to stand up and be an adult. She wants to make up for her regrets. She now knows that there are possibilities for her, endless ones. She is not just running away fro, her fears and regrets, she is also running away from new possibilities.
People cope in different ways. Traveling was Meredith's way. Now she is ready to face her reality. To start new relationships, new beginnings, and maybe even have more children. Meredith is ready for her second chance at happiness.
I agree with you, she thought running away would help her but then eventually she realized she was still rooted with the same mental dilemmas. It is sometimes similar to us and how we react to problems in our lives (except we don't have a child out roaming some where). But her coping ways did allow her to accept the ways she could move on peacefully and try new beginnings. It may be hard at first but she finally found the will power and strength she needed.
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