Dear Mr. Rochester,
I am only writing you this letter to let you know that I am safe. I will not tell you my whereabouts or who I am with. You will no nothing of my journey. You, Mr. Rochester, deserve no such graces. I owe you nothing while you owe me the world. Why would you wait to tell this secret? Why would you not explain to me? Why did you refuse to grant me a choice? That woman maybe in your care, but I was and am not! I do not deserve to be under someone’s control. I will never know if you truly loved me or I was your way out. I hope that it was not the latter. I want you to know that I am in love with you. I fell in love with you even though you are boring to look at. I fell in love with the man who worshipped me, but knew exactly how to push my buttons. I do not know the man who stood before me the day I left. The man who was desperate, who was violent, and who was threatening. I do not know him and I do not wish to know him. I left you that day. I closed that chapter of my adventure and I started a new one. You are no longer welcome in my world. One day our lives may cross paths again, but now in the present you know me as your ex-governess, nothing more. How sad this is to write you this letter. Our life was supposed to be a magical one. We were supposed to be partners. Now I am turning into you. I am embarrassed of my past. I am keeping secrets from people who have taken great care of me. You have made a liar. you have forced me into experiences that I do not wish on the most cruel of humans. I want you to never look for me. You will not find me. I do not wish to be found, especially by you. Give everyone my love.
Sincerely,Jane Elliot
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